I love to watch TV. Always have. Since I stay at home now I am able to watch it all day. I tend to put TV before many things.....even God. This is something that God has been on me for a while now. He has been telling me that I need to stop putting TV in front of Him and spend more time with Him. I have been ignoring this for a very long time, being stubborn, not wanting to give it up. I had been been setting 1 hour each day to spend reading my bible and having my quiet time. This is during Reese's morning nap. Then I would think ok I got that done, now during her afternoon nap I can relax and watch TV or a movie. Well a couple Sunday's ago in church our Preacher gave an awesome sermon. But one thing that he said changed it all for me. He said "God wants more than one hour of your time". As soon as He said this I heard a sweet voice within me saying " I want more than one hour of your time". I knew what I needed to do.....give up TV for a week and focus on my relationship with Him. I went up to the altar and made this sacrifice for Him.
I told Garrett your going to have to help me out....No TV until Reese goes to bed then I will go in the bedroom and read while he watches TV. This was the week of the Parenthood season finale......good thing for DVR!
So all week during Reese's naps and in the evening I was reading my bible or praying or just sitting quietly in His presence. Some days were hard but not at all as hard as I thought. It also gave Reese my undivided attention. I could see a difference in her. She loved having my undivided attention and not the tv in the background catching my eye sometimes. One of my prayers for a while has been that I want a closer relationship with my God. I want that close intimate relationship with Him. I have to tell you, I have not been this close to Him in a VERY long time. I look forward to when I get to have my quiet time with Him and read His word. I have felt such love and peace and joy. I have been asking Him for a transformation in my life, a change of heart and I feel He is doing that. He has been really working on me this lately. One thing He is showing me is that I need to rely on Him more than I have been on Garrett. These past couple years with everything that happened, I started to rely on Garrett for everything. Now God is telling me to rely on Him more and trusting Him.
There were a couple days before this that I sat down and said "ok God, If I'm being honest, I really don't want to read my bible and I don't want to pray but I'm going to do it anyway because I know that's what I'm supposed to do". Both times I did that and what I read turned out to be just what I needed. It just goes to show when your obedient, even when you don't feel like it, He will bless you. The times I didn't want to pray were the days when I truly poured out my heart to Him.
Garrett and I watched the Passion of the Christ. I had seen it many times, but this time was different. I could not stop thanking Him for what He did on that Cross for me. I still thank Him many times each day. I am really falling in Love for the first time with my Savior and there is no greater feeling.
God has really blessed and taken care of our family. I mean we are 25yrs old and we are debt free!! We finally have no more doctor bills to pay. What a relief! I love looking back and seeing how God's plan has unfolded in our lives. When you put your faith and trust in God He will bless you. Garrett is the perfect example I think of putting your trust in God. Trusting and not worrying about whats on the road ahead of you. Even when things looked impossible Garrett still trusted that God would come through and He always did. I thank Garrett for always putting his faith and trust in God. He's been a good example for me to do the same. Again, when your obedient, you will be blessed. What an AWESOME God we serve!!! Oh and my ministry was approved with the deacons. :) please pray for this ministry.
Now that I know I can live without TV, its not on very much during the day. I have made some new good habits. :)
She gives kisses all the time, sometimes I don't even have to ask for them :)
always gotta be in the middle of it all......
